A New Jouney

This week I will be starting bcp in order to start my IVF cycle. It is very exciting and scary at the same time. I am excited about being pregnant and scared about how low I would be if this does not work after everything we have been through up to this point. I am also nervous because I don't know what to expect since this is all new to me.

After meeting with the RE three weeks ago, we know that our only option left is IVF. Although I never thought it would come to this, I am happy that I have that option left. If I were out of options, I think that would be very hard for me at this point.

I am now waiting for my cycle to start so I can start bcp. It is strange to me because I never thought I would ever take those again! I find that very few people are very understanding about our situation. I hear, well you should be thankful you have one or with the world's population why do you need any more children. Well, the bottom line is that it is a dream that has not been realized. It is also hard when my son asks me why we can't have a baby like so many people we know.

Right now I am very hurt because of the people that have been not only not supportive but down right mean. I am thankful that I serve a faithful God that is always with me because without him I am sure that I would have lost my mind by now.

I deceided to start blogging because I think that it will be a good stress release for me to write down my feelings because I know that at times it is hard for me to communicate them.

Well, that is it for now. More to come as I go through this cycle!!