Letting Go!

Slowly I am getting over the devastation. I really feel like it is much like the grieving process. Anyway, I think I am getting to the acceptance part, and of course some days are better than others. I still have three frosties so that will be something that will happen later down the road after my body recovers from all of the drugs. I am trying very hard not to be so focused on myself, and I think that has helped a lot. When I am feeling down, I pray that God will help me through my feelings, and then I think of someone else that I need to pray for. I really believe that Satan uses self pity as a tool to destroy us and our relationship with God. No more self pity for me! (at least not for the next five minutes) Hopefully when those thoughts come I will remember that only God can help me with my thoughts and feelings!

Negative

It is negative again. I feel numb right now. It seems like I would get used to this but my hopes always soar and then crash again. For some reason this is not happening for me.