Where do I fit in?

Lately I have been feeling caught between two worlds. It seems like everyone around me is having a second, third, or even fourth child. I don't fit in with these women because they talk about how this child is different from number whatever, and talk about how many children they want to have. I wish I had the option to deceide that for myself! Then it is also frustrating because two of the women are not really happy to be pregnant. I have a hard time understanding that one at all, and it is very frustrating for me to hear it.

Then on the other hand, there are all the women that are going through infertility treatments and IVF. They don't have much sympathy for me since I already have one child. I am still devastated every single month. I still feel hurt when someone has a pregnancy announcement, and I still went through two failed IVF cycles.

So, my question is where do I fit in? I understand so many feelings of the other women going through this process but it does not seem like my feelings matter as much because I have a child. Sometimes it is just really frustrating. I feel very alone in the process, and I am thankful when my heart is broken I can cry out to God.