Pain!

I contacted the Dr. about a FET in March. We are now moving toward that. However, I also found out that I have to do another hysteroscopy. I think those are the worse form of torture! I just think I don't know if I can do that again. Then I think well I want to maximize my chances. Then I think well God is in control anyway. UGH! I am so frustrated right now because to date I have done two of them, and both cycles failed. Part of me thinks is it worth putting myself through that again? I don't know what to do! It seems like I have been in a perputual state of "I don't know what to do" since I started this whole process. I wish I had a map or an instruction manuel here.