Thursday, March 25, 2010

Cancelled!

The transfer has been cancelled. I keep having a problem with my lining getting too thick. Apparently that is the opposite problem that most people have. It was very thick last time, and he deceided that could have been part of the reason that it did not work. He did not want to take that chance again. I am now playing the waiting game again. I will wait for my period to start and then try again. It is a downer since I thought I was only three days from my transfer!

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Thankful!

Church has been such a good thing for me. I think I would be really going crazy if it was not for the continual grounding I get there. Pastor was talking last night about putting ourself on the altar of sacrifice and not holding anything back from God. I realized that I need to give my desire to have a baby to God. He will heal the hurt if it is not His will for us to have another child. I continually pray that it will happen for us, and He knows my heart. But I realize that His ways are not my ways. Only time will tell what His will for my life is.

Friday, March 12, 2010

Anxiety!

I am on all the drugs for my FET at the end of the month. It is a rollar coaster of emotions, and I feel a lot of anxiety. My mind is on so many things that when I went to the gas station today I drove away with the pump in my car. What an idiot! I was so embarassed! Anxiously I am waiting the day of the transfer but I am scared to death to hear it is negative again.